Blogging Versus Life
When I first started this blog, I was extremely excited and passionate about the issues that I was covering. Posting every day, I discovered a whole wealth of information and media coverage on issues that I had not even considered (chubby pets, anybody?) and became fascinated by topics that were not yet really on my radar, such as food safety protocol and the drag queen workout scene (still my favorite discovery EVER!).
But recently, I have been feeling very uninspired and relatively hopeless about the issues I set out to delve into. In my own personal journey of health and wellness, I found that sitting in front of a computer researching food deserts or female Olympians being harassed and belittled about their body weight or the floss diet was impacting me in a negative way, draining me of energy and filling me with frustration and disillusionment. Of course, there have been countless positive, inspiring discoveries also: from interviewing Skinny Emmie about her incredible journey, to focusing on health and mindful eating and implementing that into my own life…life is about balance and not letting the negatives outweigh the positives. Overall though, my goal to have this blog be a place for “space for satire and absurdity” and to explore topics that the media twists and manipulates has been mired in disgust and anger at the exact enterprise I set out to dissect. I have also felt honestly frustrated that I do not seem to be reaching any sort of audience and, as these are issues that truly affect each and every one of us (or should…health, food, and fitness? Definitely all a part of life), have been perplexed as to what to do about that. And so, with all my traveling these past few months, I took a welcome respite from blogging. I allowed myself to focus on what these issues mean to me personally and decide if this blog is something I want to continue to invest my time, energy, and soul into. I’ve come to this crossroads before, but after a year of blogging, this felt like a time to really figure out what all this meant to me.
And after much soul-searching and jars of nutella (wait, it’s not healthy?! What?!), I decided that this is a journey that I want to continue on, but completely on my own terms. Often I’ve found myself censoring what I really feel or being noncommittal in my issues on matters. I have often chosen to focus on the negatives instead of the positives, as the negatives are often much more sensational and therefore seem more noteworthy. But now, in order to move forward with blogging and feeling that this is a worthwhile undertaking, I have to do what’s right for me. I’d also really like to become more involved with my readers though–please do comment and engage, as that is how I continue to learn and grow as a blogger and as someone truly interested in the topics I post about.
So, let’s begin again. I may be posting three times a week sometimes, other times once a week. I may still focus on sensationalistic material occasionally, or go on endlessly about inspiration. But, no matter what, I want to make sure that my heart is in it. And that I can come to this blog and have hope and humor, and so can you.
(Image courtesy of Debt Crushing Dad, great blog!)